i've been a good girl. i studied, mugged, memorised. but i cant seem to absorb much into my tiny brain ): and it's only 1 week to my first paper. godblessme :D

i had my first remedial lesson in my entire lifetime )))):


atrivas> sheee is evil! )):
lyyme> -___-
laksa> YESSSS. i watched it! :DD ERIC<3
Ray> right. okay. zzzz. and i didnt cry.
yuning> hahaha! i dont have a dream ): but jiayou in reaching yours! :D:D i want to go to italy with you! and france, and englang, and japan, and korea! :D:D:D:D:D
Ray> dunno lehhh.
greenriver> yesyes! i knowwwww.. ));
weijie> YEA. hahaha. seriously lah, she's a badbadbadevilevilevilhorriblehorriblehorrible person ): iloveyou! :D

what is the problem with her.
yea right.
she's been getting straight As since primary school, top scholar of my pri sch, super high PSLE score, great cca achievements, conductor of nanyang choir, VP of nanyang choir, VP of monitress boards, top in class since i dont know when, best student in the class, blahblahblah.

so what?
so what?
so what?

so she gets to give an excuse such as "i have sooo much homework today, sorrrryyyy" and get away with doing her stuff like getting her own water, doing her chores, washing her shoes, blahblah.

so she gets praised by every single human being she meets and socialise with.

so she gets showed off to my dad's client and friends and employees when we go back to visit while i get labelled as being "slack and naughty".

so she gets to be ASKED to PLAY while i am FORCED to do homework which i've already finished.

so she gets to get away with stuff that she does and push it on to me. like when my mum goes "WHO LEFT THIS BOOK HERE?" she'll go "oh. it's mine, but meimei touched it and didnt put it back." like hello? i found it there. i didnt even touch it. please.

so she gets away with stealing my key and leaving me keyless and making get a scolding from mummy for "losing" my key, when all along, the key was with her. and she even said she "didnt see it" when i asked for my key.

so she gets away with not bringing her own key, and then complaining that i come home too late, and that's why she's stuck outside the door. (i am NOT exaggerating. this has happened before) and then mummy will start interrogating "WHEERE HAVE YOU BEEN? WHY ARE YOU BACK SO LATE? DO YOU KNOW UR SIS DIDNT HAVE A KEY?"
my answer would be " i was in school doing project/cca/remedials. stuck in the traffic cuz of peak hour mah. and how am i supposed to know when i cant use the phone in school?" (okay. i do know she called, but i cant PICK UP a call in school right! and she's like. didnt even leave a message or anything. she just called, and hung up. wth.
the worst thing is, my mum 'd go "CCA/PROJ/REMEDIAL WHERE GOT SO LATE! YOU DONT LIE TO ME LOR." or "WAH! STILL DARE TALK BACK!"
okay. i am NOT exaggerating.

so she gets away with not doing many things she's supposed to do. like not cooking dinner when it's her turn and making me starve when i've not had time for lunch.
and she cant even wake up on time! she has two handphone alarms everyday. and she STILL can be late and make my neighbour wait for her. i mean, hello? they're being nice and sending you to school every early morning. the only thing you can do is to be punctual right?!

so she gets away with not making her own breakfast. while i have to wake up earlyyyy to make her her breakfast! D; okay. that was the start of the year. but still, CANT SHE GET HER BUTT UP AND MAKE HER OWN MEALS? just because she cant wake up, doesnt give her any excuses not to make breakfast. and she still said "take turns to make breakfast hor, mei" yea right. it'll end up like "mei, you make breakfast everyday lah. so i can sleep later".

she claims that she's soooo tired. but please. i sleep LATER than her most of the times. and i wake up EARLIER than her. what. is . her . problem ?

yes i'm pissed. and i've been ranting non stop.

today was a happy day, but she just ruined it.
like what she always does.

okayyyyy.
didnt blog for the past 3 days.
friday was choir, did the conductor's thing LOL.
it was hilarious :D
hahahaha! tooo bad alot of people werent here to enjoy that prac xD

saturrrrday.
watched kids central! LOL.
hannah montana<3 xD
then there was this totally spies thing, which was kinda cool too.
then it's dino sapiens! it's cool.
then there's gundam seeeeed destiny!<33333
aahahahaha! 2nd time i watch it alrdy -___-
shinn asukax3 and athrun zala! :DDDDD
they rock(:

okayy, then went to couz house for bbq.
we started super early.
i started it. because i was hungry lah! no breakfast no lunch ):
i asked for a hotdog. heeeeeeeeee.
then everyone started stealing my hotdogs! and the bbq began xD
i didnt eat alotin the end.
at first i just watched people play badminton.
i didnt know how to play, and i neverrrr play beforee leh -__-
so i just slacked and listened to my mp3.
until it went out of batt -_______________-
so we started shoooting balls through those metal holes..
1st 2nd 3rd 4th 5th hole and you win. airball, restart.
my eldest couz won first ):
then my 3rd couz won.
my 2nd couz came kacaoing us =_=
i never won though. heee.

thennnn i started playing badminton with my younger couz! LOL
first timer :D:D:D
and i did quite well leh :DDDD
hahahahahaha. and they said i lied to them about being a first timer! D;
it was very fun!
drank wine tooooo.
kinda dehydrated after that. didnt drink enough water after wine and sweating so much =X
so then, we went home.

SUNDAY!
HAHA. i watched kids central AGAIN!
TAKING 5
THE CLICK 5 ACTED IN IT TOO! OHMYGOD.
hahahahahaha!
it rocked :D
5 leo rise!
heeee.
got someone to watch it with me. then we were smsing each other in between commercials to talk about theeee show :DDDDD ohmygodd! click 5 rules x3 it's their first movie man! talk about cool.
my blogsong, 'kidnap my heart' is also by them (:

i went down to buy some stuff for my mum, and when i came back, my neighbour called me! ahaha. THEY BOUGHT A NEW DOG AFTER THEIR PREVIOUS TWO DIED! :DDDD
it's so so so darn cute! damn. i want a dog too ): he let the dog out and i played with him a little. it was licking me xD it's so tiny too, and it doesnt bark ;DD
so i stood up, and it licked my foot -____- so i bent down again. and it started licking my hand. then i attempted to walk away, and it followed meeeee! KAWAII!

left the house at 4pm.
arrived at west coast.
spammed fries ><"
and just moved around. my younger cousins arent fun ):
sowadever.
blahblah. cycled abit on my couz's bike, climbed that triangle thing. and went for dinner
dinner was nice, didnt eat much though.
came home bathed, animed, chat, blog.

and since when did buffering = 八耳分影
-___-

tags replied!

jwei> hahaha(; thankyou for tagging
yita> NAH! it's not.
yuanfang> hello(:
miriam> MIRIAMMM! YESYESYES! i havent started too ): maths test killed me too lor ))): anyw, jiayou! :D
laksa> -___- maths is not fun.
lyyme> i know you're ohh-so-pro in maths. we all know. so shhhh.
Ray> wahh o.o i not that gooood lah -___- dont make me sound like an allrounded person cause i'm not lahh. anddd. i'll be looking forward to my birthday then(: thankyous!
weijie> heeeeee. weijie<3 hahaha. yes. we'll meet up. i promisee :D

i love thursdays :D
it's so slackish xD
there's practically no lessons today except for maths
MATHS TEST ):
i'm dead. i couldnt finish the paper -____-
ohhwell.
doesnt matter. A1 stay with me! ):
i need my A1s ):

malay was stupid as usual. cubed :D

i need to relearn as torrents!

mutang lizhen and i hanged around in school for half an hour before heading to vivo. went to macdonalds and had my SUNDAE<3 on the way back, i saw JIAMIN she didnt realise it's me till i waved. i finished learning the cube too :D like FINALLY? thankyous lizhen :))

btw, i year ago on this day, it was SYF ;D


i realised those were all just words. nothing but words.
the rest are part of my wishful thinking.
~
just when i thought you'd look my way,
she came stright on and turned you away

and even though in the end
you lay awkwardly in her arms,
i'll make you understand cause
she's nothing but a pretty face

today is a tiring day.
today is the day where we have all 6 subjects, and cca, and PT.
well i didnt go for PT, but i had napfa, which is prolly twice as bad ):
i'd rather run then do those stupid stuff.
anyway.
napfa wasnt all that great.
4As, 2Bs.
i was just 1cm away from 5As 1B.
):
ahhwell.
then cca. they haven even started watching the musical.
i already watched it ):
so it was kinda time wasting.
then missed like 3? or 4 166s and missed at least 2 trains and 2 243s.
got home at 8.01pm.
exhausted. dinner, bathed, started on hw at 9.10pm
do do do do do do do ):
mutang called to say that we have to stay back for music tmr.
okay.
i wasnt very willing. since we actually might not have to stay back if we had stayed on track in the music room on monday.......
and i had plans tmr.
now i have to cancel on them.
but there're still people coming to my house tmr.
and i'm supposed to be at home by 6.
now i cant even revise for maths.
i'm gonna fail it.
and it'll all be music's fault.
stupid stupid music. what's the point of us composing songs for musicals that already have songs for them? stupid, retarded music.
urgh.

hello. replies to tags :)

greenriver> hello -_-

zhiying> it's okay :)

FLUSH> well. if you TRY to do anything stupid, i'll make sure i lock you up in where mas selamat used to be.

siqi> hahahaha. of cuz. we rocked last year leh!

atrivas> i know :D

Ray> lol. i'm going great, thx for concern (:

weijie> hahahaha i read already :D ily<3!

xiao-ghost> LOL. dont ask me. i dunno how to either.

weijie> NAHH. how can they be nice. LOL.

bem> uhm. i'm not interested, sorry :D but you can link me. i dont mind.

vanessa :] > bleh. i'm telling you. you wont like him if you're one of the victims. unless you enjoy having ur abdomen mutilated -____-

ZlaksaZ> zzz at you.

greenriver> zzzzzzzz.

weekends always pass by so quickly ):
and tomorrow is CID again. i never hand in the report leh .__.
pekkhoon hazel dont kill me.
i just. forgot.
):


came back from west coast.
it was nice to be outdoors.
and the weather was nice too.
it's a nice sunday today :)

science presentation should be okay..

music isnt okay at all.
i feel that i'm lagging behind so badly ):
i haven done chinese, and even that science assignment.
i haven even started on section C! D;

things i have to do tomorrow
- science assignment
- music
- chinese bao zhang du hou gan
- tomorrow's homework
- prepare for napfa
- get enough rest.

okay ):
i made a mistake.
wenzhong's bday was yesterday.
as in, 10th april.
D;
ohhwell.
happy belated birthday ..

lizhen didnt come today ):
AND I BOUGHT MY NEW CUBE YESTERDAY! :DDDD
hahahaaha
i was fine with first layer ytd.
then got zhijie to teach me 2nd and 3rd layer today.
but only got 2nd layer done ):
3rd layer is weird. wad fish here fish there zzz
lessons were okay. i thought i wasnt gonna fall asleep during geog today, but i still dozed off in the last 10mins of the lesson -___- pekkhoon the pro slept for only 15mins last night and didnt doze off in class at all.

i survived the week :)
now, the weekends will past SO quickly, that it'll be monday again soon.
and i have music and science presentation to start with, and baozhangduhougan, and science assignment. DDDD;

qinghe ponned choir ):
i was in a rush today.
mutang and i left the canteen at 2.25pm, chionged back to class, on the way to LT4, i realised i left my cube in class. chionged back to class again, and then to LT4. i was late. it was like. 2.35 when i got there.. then warmups )):
cmon ): i was unprepared. stunned. i sat down for less than 3minutes.
okay nevermind. the worse thing is, i forgot what i said. breathe in or breathe out. then i ended up saying breathe in for dunno how many many times straight. AND there was this part when we're doing side stretch, then chingxing and i was trying to get this guy to do properly, then i forgot to tell them to come up :D and they held that position for a longlong time LOL.
zhiying and yanpeng said i almost killed them .__. well. it didnt seem like it was that long wad. -__- i was panicky and very flushed ):

vocals was okay.. except that people dont do the action properly. told the juniors to follow the seniors, but even the seniors dont do properly sometimes o__o but NVM. liangying and i love leiya! it's my fav vocal, hers too xD then i kept looking at yuanfang and standing right infront of her. but she still dunwan to open her mouth and sing, neither did she want to do the action properly. i got yanpeng to help me clap while i pulled her arms )): i feel so meannnnn DD; what can i do to make her open her mouth like --> =O instead of = ? anyway, i x33 liangying hahahaha

grease is an okay song. dont really like it. cause even the melody is abit weird. i miss zhuliguan and orex and as torrents and ill est! i wan italy back ):

i'll cope. next time(if there is one), i'll remember when to say breathe in and breathe out. and i'll remember not to torture them so much. and then i'll remember to get yuanfang to open her mouth and sing. AND THEN i will learn to love that song. andandandthenthenthen i'll continue missing italy.

BUT NOW, let's wish wenzhong a happy birthday :)

HAPPY


BIRTHDAY,


WENZHONG!


:D

i am gonna die.
omg.
i'm gonna die!
OMG.
I AM GONNA DIEEEEE!
ohmygod.
III AMMMMMM GOOOONNNNNNNNAAAAA DIIIEEEE!!
OHMYGODDD.

wth ):
hais.
I FORGOT TO HAND IN THE CID REPORT AGAIN.
roar! lailai say it's okay :D
hahahahaha
but that's not why i'm gonna die.
i'd rather not disclose it anyway, though i have the urge to rant.

okayyyyy so.
IU day was TODAY.
i think the sec 1s did quite okay in the end.
but obviously, only 1B deserved to win lah :D
you can see their effort before you even enter the class :))
1A wasnt very good lah. the decos and stuff..
although the performance isnt very related to australia, it was still quite funnny.
but i had to help them wad.
so i made people vote for them ._____. woops.
i didnt stay for the results, though i'm quite sure 1B won -___-
japan didnt do as well this year.
WE ROCKED LAST YEAR.
they should have asked us for help yea? :))
we still have all the stuff in the interact room.
PROPERTIES OF 1E 2007 :))

went to visit yuanfang a little, and charmaine and some other people
there was this GUY in my class. as in, 1A.
in choir too. i forgot his name.
he didnt believe i was in choir, cuz he never see me before -___-
sheeshhh.
and shikai actually remembered my name!
i went to his class (1B) and he saw me, then he called me :D
"AMANDA! you're amanda right?" LOL.
"wah! how you know."
" i pro wad!" -___-
typical answer of an egoist :D

then pauline couldnt stop tearing because of 1B's OLIVE OIL ):
she's allergic to it. and she didnt know it was olive. so she ate it
and then she couldnt stop tearing.
let's sue 1B!

after that we went to the gardenia factory.
it was quite cool. those super cute loaves LOL.
mutang polluted the factory with her dried up henna painting =.=
then we wowed at how the bread were packed and eeewed at how much dust and flour there were in the factory. and they let the bread cool in open air. wth -__- we're practically eating dust, no?
then i came home. and read. that's it.
good bye.

okayyy.
today is GENERALLY quite a good day.
lessons passed quickly and our geog tcher didnt come :D
so i didnt sleep :)
heeee.
instead, there was this uber cool relieve tcher who allowed us to do whatever we want except playing with rubiks cube which i perfectly dont mind :D
so i finished all my homework! yayyee
hist was okay.. i got full marks for source B, BUT VERY HORRIBLE MARKS FOR SOURCE C ):
tmr is IU day, and i get to leave class at 11 am

but i'm veryveryveryvery pissed off. we spent so so so much time and effort preparing for last year's IU day. we prepared almost a month in advance. spent many extra time meeting up to buy stuff and asking for sponsorships. we gathered comics, jap money, curtains, mats, everything related to Japan. we even ordered sushi from sakae sushi. total of more than 120bucks spent. and what did we get in return? a pack of nuts.

and this year, because of our wonderous performance last year, the prizes were upgraded to cash prizes. i dont think any of the classes put in as much effort as we did last year. maybe 1B did. but that's the only class where i see effort put in. the rest? nah. i dont really feel like i'm in those countries when i enter their classes. AND THE WINNING CLASS ACTUALLY GETS $300. WTH!
okay, so you say it's for CIP and charity purposes. we can use for our cip also wad! it's better than a pack of nuts that we didnt even get to eat. wth. it's super unfair ):

enough of ranting.

choir, no PT.
once again, the choir was split up D;
it's even starting to feel weird with the whole choir tgt.
the demo choir went through sohran bushi and miss tham taught us how to conduct.
AND WE'RE GONNA BE TESTED ON FRIDAY ):
miss tham left, the other half of the choir came back.
went through cui dong cui.
qiyuan tell me to tell yuan fang to sing on her own .__.
it's kinda scary.. considering it's only the third practice i'm with her.
i hope she's not scared of me now =X
then blahblah.. level reps to give out scores.
"amanda dont snatch his job arhh."
ouch.ouch.ouch. that stung ):
i'm sure she didnt mean anything other than "amanda, dont help him"
but the way she phrased it was kinda demoralising..
ohwell.
yuning cheered me up(:
i'm tired already.

Brief report.

1. What was the crime committed?
2. Who were involved?
(Criminal and victim)
3. How was it committed?
4. How was the case solved?
Who cracked the case?
5. Describe the techniques used.
(What evidence was collected? How was the evodemce analysed?)
6. Group reflections on the case.

CHOICE OF CASES:
Jack the Ripper (UK)
Simpson (US)
Adrian Lim (SG)
Huang Na (SG)
Nick Leeson (SG)
Anthony Ler/Lor (SG)

JACK THE RIPPER

From the testimony of various eyewitnesses, the police came up with a list of probabilities about the Ripper:
• A white male
• Average or below average height
• Between 20 and 40 years of age in 1888
• Did not dress as laborer or indigent poor
• Had lodgings in the East End
• Did have medical expertise, despite 1-2 opinions to contrary
• May have been foreigner
• Right-handed
• Had a regular job since the murders all occurred on weekends
• Was single so that he could roam streets at all hours

Sir Melville Macnaghten, who succeeded Sir Charles Warren as Chief Commisioner of the Metropolitan Police after the Ripper murders officially ended, identified three key suspectshe believed could be Jack the Ripper:

1) Mr. M. J. Druitt
- said to be a doctor and of good family background.
- found dead in the Thames one 31st December, 7 weeks after the last murder
- sexually insane
- his own family believed that he was the murderer

2) Kosminski
- a Polish Jew and resident in Whitechapel
- insane and had a great hatred of women (esp of the prostitute class)
- many circumstances that made him a 'strong' suspect

3) Michael Ostrog
- a Russian doctor and a convict
- a homicidal maniac
- whereabouts at the time of the murders never confirmed

How was it commited?

The first woman - Mary Ann Nicols aka "Polly", Age 42

- the daughter of a locksmith
- married William Nichols, a printer's machinist and had five children
- divorced due to very serious drinking problem
- lived by being a prostitute
- although a destitue woman, she was liked and pitied by people.

+ found lying on her bag, skits lifted to her waist
+ throat slasked from ear to ear with blood oozing out
+ eyes were wide open and staring
+ hands and wrists were cold, but warm in her arms suggested that she was not dead for a very long time (no longer than half an hour)
+ neck had been slashed twice, severing her windpipe and esophagus
+ killed where she was found but there was little blood, suggesting that she was dead before she was slashed.
+ abdomen had been wounded and mutilated, exhibited a long, deep jagged knife wound
+ bruised on the lower left jaw

> no witnesses, weapon or any other type of clues
> no vehicle or person seen escaping the scene

The second woman - Annie Chapman aka "Dark Annie", aged 47

- pathetic woman who was essentially homeless
- married to John Chapman, a coachman, and had three children
- divorced due to stress of the children's illness and heavy drinking
- eventually turned to prostitution to support herself

+ commited in daylight
+ deceased found lying on her back with her left arm across the left breast and legs drawn up with feet resting on the ground and knees turned outwards.
+ face was swollen and turned to the right side and the tongue protruded between the front teeth
+ small intestines and other internal portions were lying on the right side of the body above the right shoulder, still attached to the insides
+ large quantity of blood
+ body cold, with remaining heat
+ Stiffness of the body was just starting
+ throat dissevered deeply, incision of the skin was jagged and reached around the neck
+ abdomen has been entirely laid open with intestines severed from their mensenteric attachment
+ the uterus and its appendages, with the upper oprtion of the vagina and two-thirds of the bladder was entirely removed.
+ no trace of these parts could be found at the crime scene and the incisions were cleanly cut, showing professionalism in this area of dissection.

> although still no sign of escaping suspects, nor was there weapons found at the crime scene, there were witnesses this time round.
> the first witness is John Richardson (Mrs Amelia Richardson's son) who visted 29 Hanbury to check the locks on the cellar between 4.45am and 4.50am
> At that time, there was no body of Annie Chapman in the backyard

> The second witness is Albert Cadosch who lives next door to 29 Hanbury street
> heard voices coming from the backyard just after 5.20am
> few minutes later, at around 5.30am, heard the sound of something falling against the fence

> The most important witness was Mrs Elizabeth Long who was passing by 29 Hanbry street to the market at 5.30am.
> saw a man and a woman (later identified to be Annie) was conversing.
> Unfortunately, the man, who is most likely to be the murderer, was back facing Mrs Long.




okay wadever. supposed to be CID homework -___-
Jack the Ripper. damn pro
and DISGUSTING.
like wtf. who goes around slashing people's throats and taking out their organs and intestines and private organs lah.
wth zzz.
yuck.
yuck.
yuckkkkk.

i love mondays ;D because the only actual lessons are lang arts and chinese!
but there's this boring CID ):
nvm. i get to see hazel. and pekkhoon :D
basically, it's a slack day where i get to go home early and slack [:

i just got back from movieeeee with mutang<3
qinghe and yewhui came too.
STEP UP 2 ROCKS :D
streeeet dancing is really cool!
and there was this tear jerking moment when the lead actress for expelled..
i nearly cried. heh.
but hey! as usual, the ending rocked :)
they danced in the rain mann! and that retarded president of MSA finally understood the true meaning of STREET DANCING. it's not illegal kay!):
and after the finale, someone in the cinema clapped leh LOL
but it really makes you feel like dancing. the music rocks, and it reminds me of deafcon<3
and the cliche, the lead actor and actress kissed in the rain ._.

MUTANG! I WAN THE STEP UP DISC! ((:

the guys went to archade. we went home
tang wanted to finish his chem.
i still dunno wth it's about ):
i'll start work uhm. later.
and finish them by tday.
it's not alot, fortunately.
it's reading time NOW :D

well. usually, choir would have been fantabulous.
but i dont know why it isnt today.
well, many missing people today
cuz of parent meeting session and napha test
my 2.4 is next week! ):
stitches stay away DDDDDDDD:

lessons were boring as usual, fell asleep in geog AGAIN.
there's not once that i wont sleep in geog.
it's so boring ):
science was okay. less confusing, since acids and pH and alkaline are stupid.
gahh.
maths wassssss super stupid.
primary school work. but people still get it wrong lah wth -___-
it's only the presentation that needs some brushing up.
i realise there's manymanymany birthdays in april and june.
ohhwell.
i'm not looking forward to my birthday now.
cause by then, the sec4s would be gone ):
august is only 4 months away)):
then there's this conductor's workshop in a couple of weeks,
and THEN there's the exchange with dunman high in may,
AND THEN there's gonna be choir camp,
followed by speeechday,
and it's goodbye to the sec 4s...
D;

i really dont feel like going out tmr.
i wanna sleep in and read my books all day
i'm feeling slugggggish and in the mood for nothing.




The whole world was sleeping
And I was there
You could just sense this feeling in the air
Like no one's words were good enough to define what we feared
And no one's words were strong enough to fix what happened here

Lead on to save me
Lead us all there
Find me some answers
One nation beware
Can't tell the difference between myth and man
Or what's necessary or where I should stand

The whole world is different now men have died
They can just sense this feeling in our eyes
Like no one's hands are big enough
To hold onto this fear
And no one's hands are strong enough to fix what happened here

So do we do now
Raise our voices loud
Were searching for something that cannot be found
Here open mouthsI see open hands
Blinded and silent I can't understand

The whole world is watching with one blank stare
I can just sense this feeling of ill-repair
Like no ones heart is full enough
To keep away this fear
And no ones heart is strong enough to fix what happened here

Lead on to save me
Lead us all there
Find me some answers
Its time that you shared
Cant tell the difference between myth and man
Or what's necessary or where I should stand

So do we tell now
Raise our voices loud
We're searching for something that cannot be found
I hear open mouthsAnd I see open hands
Like the blinded and silent I can't understand

i'm so tired i think i can sleep for 48hrs straight.

i'm basically waking up each morning, not knowing what to do except for my daily routine: brush my teeth, change into my uniform, go to school, finish up the pile of homework, sleep. everyday's almost the same, it doesnt matter if it's monday, or sunday anymore. i feel as if i cant breathe anymore. no, life isnt that stressful. as in, the work load is still okay. it's just that, my life is plain screwed.

i spend my days procrastinating even though i know i should not. i worry and worry about little stuff and it's starting to suffocate me. i do things that i know is wrong, and yet, i still do it. i feel trapped up in this tiny world, where the only thing that i can think of is school. everything i do now is related to school.

i dont really know what i'm talking about, but i know that i'm wasting precious time when i should be at my study table, scribbling furiously on my foolscap pad and finishing my history assignment. but i dont feel like doing anything like that. i just wanna try getting scolded by the teacher for not doing my work. that stupid, i know.

and now, there's this very annoying tingxie tmr. i have no idea what it is for. we're being treated like primary school kids. which SERIOUSLY, i dont appreciate. how can this help us? can someone please enlighten me? i really dont get it. it's time wasting and it's killing my braincells. what a waste of cells!

forget that. i'm just so tired, i dont feel like doing anything. i know i'm repeating what i said, but it just shows how stupid i'm feeling right now. stupid, retarded, noobed. maybe i've always been stupid, retarded and noobed, just that i didnt realise it till now. just maybe.

i wanna sleep ):