today started pretty well, though the story telling was horrible.
chinese sucked. i hate the teacher now.
lang arts was okay. bearable.we got lolliops heh ;D thanks to william and i -.-
recess. read breaking dawn. mutang's copy LOL. she havent even started twilight, yet she bought all 4 books at once -.- thank god all the books are on sales now.
anyw. physics will be a disaster for me beeecause i totally detest the teacher.
she suckkkk to the deeepest pits of hell. yes she does.
but my mood was pretty much lifted by the THOUGHT of EDWARDDDD ;D;D;D
let's stop the boring crap.

choir.
how do i put it.
it wasnt productive, like always.
miss tham came at around 5++ but we didnt do much.
she reprimanded us. scolding sounds too harsh. she was just talking normally, but every sane person would at least SENSE that she's not at allhappy.
and shut the hell up. and stop figeting.
i was damn pissed when she was talking to us, and i kept hearing the sound of people flipping scores and people fidgeting continuously.
i was pretty much used to the silence when miss tham talked to us in the past. it used to be soooo quiet, but the silence carried out respect for miss tham. we valued her comments and treasured her time with us.
trust me, i really did feel like telling them to stop moving and sit still.
but miss tham was talking. and i couldnt find a right moment to cut in. and then it felt weird to me since i'm only a SL. (this is not an excuse. but you know, sometimes, you're just afraid of doing things cause people start talking about it afterwards.)
thus, i've come to this conclusion, that i need to get over myself.

but still. altos is like. hell weak, and i dont know what to do.
when i talk to them and tell them what to do, they just stone there and simply STONE.
they dont acknowledge me at all. i'm like some weird crazy thing babbling in a language that they didn understand. that's probably why they didnt answer when i asked 'OKAY?' or whatever.
some did, like amelia and jiarong, who's trying their best to help me. thank you mannnnnnxzxzx.

i cant possibly force them to do anything if they cant be bothered.
if choir is just a CCA to them, just something they attend for the sake of attending, then i really cant do much, can i?
if they refuse to sing out, refuse to apply technique, refuse to use abs, then just WHAT am i supposed to do? (please do not give me such a retarded excuse such as "i dont know how to use abs/technique!"
like HELLO. you have a mouth. you have a handphone. you have an email.
you can ask me PERSONALLY, SMS/phone me, or IM me. i'm sure i'd be more than happy if any of them would actually ASK and clarify whatever they dont understand.

i'm sure sectionals are bad enough without me picking on them, but if things dont improve, then there really isnt much options, is there?

just got back from interact camp.
skipped choir for the camp ytd, decoed LT4 and played some games.
it was relaxing ;D
it wasnt exactly FUN, but it was relaxing. yea.
and i found the guy with the crooked smile! ohmygod<3
ahaha. i think that guy's superrrrr cute when he smiles that smile. LOL

i feel that, my mum is being inconsiderate.
she JUST told me that i'm supposed to entertain her clients from 8-11 august.
entertain as in bring them around, eat dinner with them, do all those lame shit stuff.
okay look. 8th august, is a half school day thing.
i planned to go back to pri sch or even chiong home to revise because i've like tons of things to memorise and i'm super lost.
9 and 10 aug is weeeekend. revision days as well.
like please, common test starts on 14th aug. and we dont even get to skip lessons after that.
which means i wont have much time to revise any single shit other than 8-10 aug. 11aug, is a school day. and that means homework and other shitty stuff.
which means, i will not have any time to do homework given on that day. which also means that i'll have to sacrifice my sleep for people whom i dont even care about. though i've seen them a couple of times, if doesnt mean that i'm in any relation to them.
why am i dragged into all kinds of shit every single time.
it's so darn irritating it pisses me off.
i've been robbed of my revision time.
and now im gonna flunk my common test.
you have NO IDEA how bad my situation is.
i'm so. so. so. so. so. so. damn angry.