ohh, the agony

today was an okayday.
school is boringggggg like hell as usual.
i cannot believe we had 1horu 20mins of physics.
jeanne lim is out to kill. she sucks, anyw.

'sides that, i think it was quite slack.
L2S isnt here today, which is goodgoooooodgoooooooood.
miss wong is absent too. dang. i'd rather have maths than get more of physics.

WE DIDNT GET BACK ANY OF OUR PAPERS TODAY.
ROAR.

argh. what happened to giving us our report card back by this week?
at the rate we're going, that's IMPOSSIBILITY.

i didnt go for the HSK shit that was supposed to last for 2.5hours.
instead, i went to change/clean my dressing. ouch.
THE DOCTOR. HAS NO IDEA. WHAT IS. GENTLER.
he was damn rough i'm telling you. ouchouchouch. the agony.
i was practically writhing in pain. argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

worse, i've to clean it myself from tmr onwards. oh hell.
i'm gonna faint when i see my flesh. oh the joy, oh the agony, oh the hell.
get over it. it's only blood.

I FINISHED MIDNIGHT SUN! :D

today started pretty well, though the story telling was horrible.
chinese sucked. i hate the teacher now.
lang arts was okay. bearable.we got lolliops heh ;D thanks to william and i -.-
recess. read breaking dawn. mutang's copy LOL. she havent even started twilight, yet she bought all 4 books at once -.- thank god all the books are on sales now.
anyw. physics will be a disaster for me beeecause i totally detest the teacher.
she suckkkk to the deeepest pits of hell. yes she does.
but my mood was pretty much lifted by the THOUGHT of EDWARDDDD ;D;D;D
let's stop the boring crap.

choir.
how do i put it.
it wasnt productive, like always.
miss tham came at around 5++ but we didnt do much.
she reprimanded us. scolding sounds too harsh. she was just talking normally, but every sane person would at least SENSE that she's not at allhappy.
and shut the hell up. and stop figeting.
i was damn pissed when she was talking to us, and i kept hearing the sound of people flipping scores and people fidgeting continuously.
i was pretty much used to the silence when miss tham talked to us in the past. it used to be soooo quiet, but the silence carried out respect for miss tham. we valued her comments and treasured her time with us.
trust me, i really did feel like telling them to stop moving and sit still.
but miss tham was talking. and i couldnt find a right moment to cut in. and then it felt weird to me since i'm only a SL. (this is not an excuse. but you know, sometimes, you're just afraid of doing things cause people start talking about it afterwards.)
thus, i've come to this conclusion, that i need to get over myself.

but still. altos is like. hell weak, and i dont know what to do.
when i talk to them and tell them what to do, they just stone there and simply STONE.
they dont acknowledge me at all. i'm like some weird crazy thing babbling in a language that they didn understand. that's probably why they didnt answer when i asked 'OKAY?' or whatever.
some did, like amelia and jiarong, who's trying their best to help me. thank you mannnnnnxzxzx.

i cant possibly force them to do anything if they cant be bothered.
if choir is just a CCA to them, just something they attend for the sake of attending, then i really cant do much, can i?
if they refuse to sing out, refuse to apply technique, refuse to use abs, then just WHAT am i supposed to do? (please do not give me such a retarded excuse such as "i dont know how to use abs/technique!"
like HELLO. you have a mouth. you have a handphone. you have an email.
you can ask me PERSONALLY, SMS/phone me, or IM me. i'm sure i'd be more than happy if any of them would actually ASK and clarify whatever they dont understand.

i'm sure sectionals are bad enough without me picking on them, but if things dont improve, then there really isnt much options, is there?

the past week was a breeze.
no homework at all. except for some chinese crap that i didnt really bother to do ._.
but i know the following weeks will be horrible.
i somehow agreed to this play thing. where i will be utterly embarrased. urgh.
and then there's WMT. i do not look forward to it okay. i'd rather be with my cca and have practice all day ): i dont like going overseas with people other than my cca mates. double urgh.
and THEN there's racial harmony on monday. a bloody waste of time, i feel. although i do understand the importance of racial harmony -__- triple urghhhhh.

and thenthenthenn THERE'S COMMON TEST D:
no one loves it. but it still exists. damn.
it starts on 14th august and ends on 27th. with a week's break between history and maths. what's wrong with the teachers! trying to make us die of stress with that week's break?!

the only ray of light in my deepest sea of tears is, that in 16 days time, EDWARD IS COMING HOMEEEEEEE! ohhhhyesssss. BREAKING DAWN IS OUT IN 16 DAYS TIME!
i preordered it yay! and yuching totally rocks. my mum does too, considering it's like a 1month birthday present in advance.

my sorethroat is hurting me. noooooooooooooooooooooooooo!