it's been a long long long time since i felt this way.
the feeling, worse than death itself.
especially when you cant help but to stare and wonder.

I'm happy, naturally.
3E is great, except for the classname.
all the teachers are awesome, except for one.
cca is going fine, except that i dont know what i'm supposed to do
things're fine at home, except for my dad going crazy.
i have the choir ppl with me in class, except that it's only them.


why is there an exception for everthing in my life?


i cant fit into the class just yet.
'cause it still feeels super weird to be in the class.
i dont even talk to anyone except for cx pk and xinyi
maybe shaun and tzechong sometimes, but they're scared of me for some reason.
and then i'm told that i'm very negative, and that i'm too fierce,
but some say that i should be fierce, so who should i listen to?

this sucks. big time.

the 201th post! HAPPPPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE! :D:D:D:D

okay, firstly, i'm totally excited for the new year :D
cause it'll be a new year, with my new class, with alllll my friends!
there're like, 37 ppl in 3E (overcrowding) =.= but pk, cx, xinyi, tzechong, shaun, elvin, tang, shiyi, fiona are in my class ahahahaha.
yea, i hope it'll be a great year.

i hope that i'll be able to maintain good results in the coming year,
i hope that i'll continue to do my best for the choir,
i hope that our friendships will last,
i hope that it'll be a fun and successful and fulfilling year,
i hope that i wont be distracted by stupid things,
i hope to have more self-discipline :D

yea. i'm gonna make it happen yo.

weijie;
hello bf! x3 i love you to heaven can! x)
ahaha. i know you love me too.
YOUR BIRTHDAY PRESENT IS STILL WITH ME ROAR.
ohwell. i hope 2009 will be an even better year for you,
and that your loveeee with that stupid drug addict will soar through the sky =\
you better go out with me often. if not, i'm gonna dieeee of boredom x.x
anyway, have a splendiddddddd year in your school and allll the best in your academic results too! x3

pekkkhooooon;
YO PEK! LOL.
seriously, i think it's fate or something LOL.
i've beeen in the same class with you from p2-p6, and then the same school, and now same class again. ohhhandand the same cca too. like HELLO?
i love you just as much as i love chingxing okay! cause you're both my great friendddddd.
please know that i'll be there for you whenever you need me okay? i'm not that stupid childish crazy ignorant amanda anymore LOL.
maybe still abit stupid and childish and crazy and ignorant, but i think i'm nicer now lah LOL.
loves lots! have a great year [:

cx;
YOUSTUPIDDUMBDUMB.
who told you to finish 29 pills at once?!
ARE YOU SUICIDAL?
seriously, overdosaging is super dangerous okay!
but i hope the pills will remind you that you've got friends who'll stand by you forever and ever and ever okay!
we love you [:

2eternians;
heyyo peeps, you guys have given me a big headache with all those money issues and stuff.
BUT NEVERTHELESS, i've enjoyed 2007 and 2008 with you guys. especially those in my cliques, both the 2007 and the 2008 clique. no matter what, you guys still rock the most yea!
i hope 2009 will be an even better year for all of you guys in your new class, and remember to keep in contact okay?
AMANDA IS AN UNFORGIVING PERSON WHO WONT FORGIVE YOU IF YOU DARE FORGET HER.
LOL. nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
she lovesssssssss you all to hell [:

here's a shortshortshortshortshort prayer x)
dear Jesus in heaven,
Please let 2009 be a great year for all my beloved friends and family members. Guide them through turbulents and help them achieve amazing results!
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.


YAYYY! :D

the 200th post. last post of 2008.

the last 15 minutes of 2008.

I had a great year, a great 2008.
thanks to everyone, for the sad/angry/happy/disappointing/pissing/wadever moments.
they've helped me grow alot, and i'm thankful for that.
to those i've offended in one way or another,
i sincerely apologise.

i do believe in miracles,
and i hope that the miracles of a new year will wash away all signs of dread and negativity [:

[edit]
my blog time is slow.
it's already 11.45pm now :D:D
the last 15 minutes of the year.
[/edit]

the 199th post.

HELLO :D

MARRRRY KRISTMUS WAN AN OLLL!

i reached home half an hour ago.
that's why i'm quite late.
i'm sorry.

regardless,
thanks for those merry xmas tags! <3
you know i love them like mad [[[[[[:

my poor toe has been bandaged again.
it was the right leg previously, now it's the left.
wannnnn-daaaa-foooool, no?

i've been working. and slacking.
and not doing homework D:

so i have one sihan, which'll probably take me half an hour.
a 350 write up about some shitty historical crap which will take me another half an hour
and a commonwealth essay which will take me a whole freaking day to write.
okay maybe not.
i just wont finish the essay within a day. that's it.

i'm feeling like shit today cause:
1) i cant go for my archery lesson
2) i cant go out with my work friends
3) i cant go out with weijie tomorrow
all because my leg has rendered me immobile.

it's not like i cant walk, but it'll probably take me two hours to bathe without wetting the wound, 5 minutes to wear my shoe, 15minutes to walk to the bus stop, walk like some slow snail, and if anyone steps on my leg, i'll risk another infection.

OHHHHHHWELLL.

jeslynn and danying came to my house to give me the invitation to the christmas celebration thingy with chc.
it's at expooooo though, and it'll surely be crowded.
let's hope i dont get stepped on :D

my mum said it's time i started getting serious again.
because 2009 is gonna be tedious.
and she's probably right, just that i dont have the motivation to do anything right now.
i'll get on it, someday.

the 199th post - a quiz.

tagged by xuewen i think [:
i'm the first on her list HEH ._.

anyway, here goes.

1. What day, date and time is it?
Tuesday, 16th December 2008, 7.52pm

2.If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
i cant think of one right now.

3.Have you ever thought of committing suicide?
uhm, i think so.
long time ago.

4. What would you do if you won the Miss/Mr Universe?
i'll wake up from my dream.

5.Will you fall in love with your best friend?
i'm already in love with her x)

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
neither -___________-
one is just as irritating as the other.

7.What would be the most ideal way to wake up to in the morning?
falling back to sleep again.

8. What is ur favourite dessert?
mummy's tiramisu and mango pudding and choc cake :D

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? bf? gf? actor? actress?
myself.

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
of course, provided we're still in contact.
and if i even wanna marry.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
dont know.

12. What makes you happy?
oh this. HAHA. top secret :D

13. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
look at my handphone. it's a habit. to check the time, obviously.

14.Would you give all in a relationship?
friends relationship, depending on which friend.
usually, i would.
BGR, no :D

15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
neither. i'd rather fall in love with the characters in those mangas i read.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. they're darn cute okay.

16. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
OF COURSE? DO I LOOK AS IF I'M VERY UNFORGIVING?
okay. i probably do.
but anyway, it depends on who did what.

17. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
having a relationship with my girlfriends.

18. If your girlfriend/boyfriend told u that she/he is actually a prince/princess, what will u do?
impossible.
even if it's possible, i'll just laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh.
and then break up with him for making such a lame joke.


yea done :D

i have no one to tag.

so bye.


aunties are horrible. i'll tell you why next time.
tsk.

oh great, i'm back -booooos-

i'll blog about HK, i guess.

20th dec 2008
THE first day.

morning flight, reached HK in the afterrrrnoon.
you see, everytime we go back, people are like rushing to treat us to dinners.
people like my dad's friends, clients, workers, and relatives.
so naturally, everything has been arranged since day 1.
but well, family comes first right? soooo,

we had steamboat ♥ for dinner :D with my *some* of my relatives.
steamboats in HK is nthing like steamboat in SG.
the atmosphere is different, the foood is nicer, and my dad's side relatives are all ultra nice [:

there was this big prawn, called "lai liu ha" in cantonese -.- if you translate it, it actually meant "PEE PRAWN". it was still very much ALIVE when we put it in the wok.

so in summary:

appetiser:
abaloneeeee soup

main course included:
pee prawn [for convenience's sake],
normal prawn,
"lai mang" [a type of fish],
"da bai chang" [read this in chinese. another fish],
wanton,
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEF :D:D:D,
meat/mushroom/sotong balls,
CRAB,
vege & tofuuuu♥♥♥,
sweet corn,
cheese cocktails,
chicken,
and sliced abaloneeee.

dessert consisted of:
mango pudding,
yam mochi

choice of beverage:
red wine
blue girl [a famous brand of beer in hk]
lemon coke
lemon tee
water

i think i drank everything except for coke.

my parents allow me to drink alcohol even though i'm underaged cause they're people who believe that girls need to be able to handle a considerable amount of alcohol so that we wont get drunk so easily when we grow up and let those jerks do weird stuff after forcing shots on us.
so yea :D

i particularly enjoy red wine. it gives the throat a burning feeling that SORT OF opens my throat.
beer stinks -____-

went to my couz's house to stay overnight.
it's a must everytime we go back, cause they have a fast computer heh.
my house's comp is abit lag -.-
oh yes. my cousin is 27. BUT SHE ACTS LIKE A 10 YEAR OLD CHILD.
she looks 17 or 18 too -.- very baby-faced.

oh right, did i mention that my dad brought back BIG BAGGSSSSS of fila clothes?

he's a director of a textile company, so we always get clothes for free -____-
this batch was shipped to canada, but daddy got his colleagues to fill up bags of clothes for us ._.


now i have 7 jackets of the same design but of different colours.
pink, grey, black, brown, white, dark purple, dark blue.
that's not all really, there're two different designs of jackets so i took around 4 of that as well.
my sis and mum took some too.


i have a feeling i can give out jackets as christmas presents now :D LOL.
there're clothes too, mostly sportswear. like tight fitting trackpants and polo tees.
there's a LONG SHIRT THAT I LIKE A LOT TOO :D it's black with white stripes. totally cool x}


21 oct.

actually. i should just forget about blogging the next 9 days.
i'm lazy :D
just look at he pictures on facebook okay?

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=49450&l=71716&id=700538578
there you go.
those are only 1/10 of the pictures we took there.
all taken with my phone cam.
the rest are with my sis and couz and i'll upload them laterrrrrr.

i know, i should be talking and raving about how sad i am to leave 2E.
not that i'm not sad, but i dont think i need to remind myself of how sad it is zzz.

congratulations to me, for starting the crying-spree.
szenee played the song. and i started tearing.
then yuching came to comfort me, but ended up going "amanda, dont cry lahhhh" and starts crying herself. LOL.
so we cried, sitting in our seats.
everyone [the girls] who came to us to comfort us, cried.
the sweetest thing is that even the guys LIKE QINGHE, came to us and said "i'll miss you"
AWWWWWWWWWWW ):
so sad D:
so yc and i cried even harder -.-
you see, i'm a sucker for emotional moments.

lalala, and everyone started crying.
okay, not everyone. majority.
EVEN GUYS LIKE YEWHUI CHONGTAT AND YUHONG CRIED LAH! D:
so sadddddddddddddddddddddddddddd ):

okay. post dedication tomorrow since i'm not working tmrrrrrr.

i really hope she didnt.
i really, really do.